30 Weeks!!!

Wow, can you believe it? We are already 30 weeks along in this journey with only 10 left to go. (Hopefully less!) Part of me feels like 10 weeks is right around the corner and the other part of me feels like it will take forever to get here. I am getting big....... really big! It's amazing how you forget this after a pregnancy is over. Sleeping is becoming a bit more challenging and the middle of the night bathroom trips have returned with a vengeance. I will probably start using my second body pillow this weekend which will put a full wall around me on both sides so I can flip easier. So much for romance! Sorry hon.

Overall, I am feeling good. I have had quite a bit of heartburn and more indigestion periodically. I refuse to eat broccoli again until I deliver because it caused me so much pain for hours earlier this week! I am still craving any kind of sweets and still love chicken salad sandwiches. Tonight we are having friends over for pizza and I am dreading the meal. I absolutely despise pizza with this pregnancy. So strange because its usually a staple item on our family dining menu. I may fill up on cheese and crackers instead. As of this week, my varicose vein has decided to travel down into my calf so its bigger than ever. I am very self conscious of it and my ever increasing body size now.

I have been more emotional than usual lately which I am sure has to do with the added pregnancy hormones. It is so different this time around obviously because it is not mine. I swear when I was pregnant with my own kids I didn't care how big I was- I still felt beautiful. This time, I just feel big! Maybe its because I don't allow myself to have the "glow". I feel insecure about everything lately which I hate. I am trying to stay positive but I am not going to lie-I am a bit worried about how everything will end. I hope I will be able to hold this little guy some after delivering and hope we will continue to be close with R & S so we can see him grow up. For now, I am doing my very best to keep him safe and healthy and give him the best start to life as possible.

Our kids are doing really well with it all still. I think Morgan is wondering why the heck Mommy's tummy looks so big lately but she can't figure out how to ask about it. Carson is always loving and wants to take care of me. Gavin- I am not sure he has noticed that I am pregnant. :) They all seem to be fine though and understand perfectly that the baby will be going home with R & S. One day at the gym last week some of the day care workers asked Gavin if he was going to have another brother or sister and he said "No way, I already have a brother and sister!" Imagine the look on their faces when he said that. Of course I got questioned by all of the ladies after that since they were dumbfounded looking at my belly after what Gavin said.

Sunday we are heading over to R & S's house for a visit with them and their parents. We are really looking forward to it and can't wait to see the new babies room! I hope this little man will show his powers with some kicks while we are together on Sunday.

One week from today, Al and I will be celebrating our 10 year wedding anniversary. I pray that we have many, many more years together and love forever. I am looking forward to celebrating with him next weekend! Unfortunately, right after that, he is heading out of town- YET AGAIN. So be prepared for me to go crazy again the week of 3/9th! I am seriously so sick of the traveling. 3 out of 5 weeks is more than I can handle!

Sorry for the long post. Guess I felt like I had a lot to say today. :) Hope everyone has a great weekend.