GOT MILK?

Well that is what I have been up to lately. Three weeks ago today we were in labor and every 4 hours since then (on average) I have been a pumping maniac! I have pumped over 500 ounces of milk in 3 short weeks and am quite proud of my lactation abilities! :) We shipped our first cooler of frozen breast milk on Tuesday which had 250 ounces in it and the rest remains in our deep freezer. I am so happy to be able to provide that to all those preemies in need. Here you go babies! Be strong!

Ok, enough milk talk. I am feeling really good. I started walking and doing some Wii Fit this week in hopes to shed some pounds. Unfortunately, the bleeding is still here, but the pain is gone now so that's good. Sorry Al, three more weeks!

Yesterday I had a quick visit with Baby Luke and R and was amazed at how different he looks. He is starting to fill out more and has so much hair! It was hard to tell in the hospital because it was matted down and then of course he had the newborn hat on most of the time. He looks like an identical miniature version of his Daddy. Just amazing. He was sleeping most of the time while I was there but I got to hold him a little bit and he opened his eyes for me. It was really nice to see him and so surreal to think about him being in my tummy just 3 weeks ago. Wow- I am still in shock. I feel like this whole journey was an out of body experience. It's like I was watching from afar- and not actually going through it. Surreal is the only word that can describe it.

Our kids are doing great with it all. They haven't been sad at all about not bringing a baby home. They have known all along what was going to happen and they are totally fine with it. Morgan calls every baby she sees lately "Baby Luke". Carson told me this week that I am "finally getting skinny again" which was nice. They have all adjusted totally fine like nothing ever happened. I am sure they will be excited to see Luke again soon but for now, they are just busy enjoying their own lives (without a screaming newborn in the house!)

I have had more thoughts over the past couple weeks about pregnancy in general and how I miss it and also have thought about wanting another one of our own someday but I know that is just a fantasy. No way would Al go for that! I know we are done and I'm pretty sure I am done with surrogacy/ pregnancy but you never know.................. Now if only I can talk my sister in law and cousin in law into it so I can live through them this time!