A week ago today..........

It is hard to believe that last week at this time I was nervously awaiting the news of whether or not the induction was going to happen. I have been reliving the entire day in my mind over the past couple days and still can't believe it all happened. (Way too fast if you ask me!) Luke is a week old today. Today is a special day for him too because it's his Bris ceremony. We would have loved to be part of it, but our little guy Gavin has his preschool graduation today at exactly the same time so unfortunately, we can't be at the Bris. Good luck Luke!!! I am sure you will do great!!!

I am feeling really good. Still have not been sad at all about being apart from Luke. It is so hard to explain.......... yes, he came out of me, but was never part of me. He was theirs all along. And I am happy they have him to hold, care for and love. I do look at his pictures quite a bit but they do not bring sadness, only happiness because I helped give him life. He is truly such a cutie and I can't wait to see more pictures of him and watch him grow up. I do miss being pregnant.... (WAIT, DID I JUST SAY THAT OUT LOUD?) I know, I am NUTS! It was just a week ago that I was miserable but its amazing how quickly your mind forgets that. I guess I need to just focus on my next goal- losing weight! So far I have lost 15lbs which I guess is ok, but that means I still have 15 more to go which is not going to be easy- especially when I am not allowed back at the gym for 4- 6 weeks.

I have talked to R quite a bit since last week. Luke is doing really well and is back up to 8 lbs (just one ounce shy of his birth weight). She said he is a really good baby! His big brother doesn't really know what to think of him yet, but soon enough they will be best of friends.

Pumping is going great! It still hurts like hell for the first minute or so each time but hopefully that will go away within a week or so. But the good news is, I am up to about 85 ounces frozen already which isn't bad for one week! I have been setting the alarm to wake up 2 or 3 times a night to pump depending on the timing. My goal is to pump at 10pm each night and then only have to wake up at 2am and then pump in the morning when I get up at 6:30am but sometimes the timing of that doesn't work and I have to wake up an additional time. Luckily Al has been very helpful and has been getting up at night with me to take the milk downstairs to the fridge and bring up new bottles. That allows me to crawl back into bed that much quicker! I feel great every time I freeze another bottle. And I of course am enjoying the "bigger" benefits of breastfeeding. :) Al is enjoying that change too but too bad he can't do anything about it for 6 weeks. Poor guy!

I am not sure how much longer I will keep up this blog considering the big event has already happened and I know I am not that exciting for people to continue to follow just for the heck of it. We'll see what happens. Maybe I will continue it for a couple more months to continue to update everyone on how Luke is doing as well as myself.